two things.

one, my government & business professor calls a bunch of us up at class to inform us of our exemption from the final, and the news could not have come at a more opportune moment because there i was before class freaking out over missing lecture notes. at the risk of sounding overly-congratulatory, it feels good. kinda like one exam down already.

and two, it has been raining almost continuously for two days already. i love the rain but not when getting to and back from school everyday becomes a high-stress situation. i think all the annoying mishaps i've had with my car has turned me into a bit of a henny-penny sort of driver.

i am still in disbelief over how quickly this semester has gone by. in my final week of class, i can safely say that i have gotten through these months of countless tests, papers, and exams by no means of my own. i used to be concerned about the big picture, but now i think i am content to celebrate the minutiae. this is the start of something good im sure.

hellogoodbye - shimmy shimmy quarter turn

december has been awfully good to me. i think i'm beginning to like it alot. for the first time in my life, i am feeling okay about exams. i dont think im any more prepared than the years before, but i am at peace. in most ways at least.

i am happy. at least i think i am...or maybe im just getting a little more skilled at patching over the things that hurt with chunks of lust and indifference.

i used to handle these things so well, but in the process of growing up, i am not so sure what happened. something happened to me this year, and as hard as i try to shake it off, i dont think im quite the same person anymore. for once in my life, i think i want to give a fuck.

the used - all that i've got